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But can I just say that watching what you eat SUCKS?! Especially in the holiday season. I just want ALL the salted caramel, gingerbread, peppermint, chocolate, white chocolate stuff. fsdlkjfsdlkjf SIGH.

Guys, I had the BEST birthday this year. My favorite one to date I bet. It was on Friday and so first I want to thank y'all! I got fic, shout outs, messages, texts, vgifts, tweets, e-mails, the works!

Thanks to enchanted_jae for stepping out of her comfort zone and writing me J2 fic with scruff! Go read Morning Scruff!

Thanks to locknkey, dephigravity, memoonster, heartsonwings, ordinaryink, wendy, deirdre_c, maerhys, and dolnmoon for the beautiful v-gifts adorning my profile page.

I'm slowly getting through my inbox, but a big thank you!

Work was AMAZING. Usually for people's birthday, we'd get cake and stuff, but this time? There was a surprise potluck for me! Every staff member brought food and they all signed this card for me and chipped in for 2 gift cards. A friend who wasn't working that day drove an HOUR to come see me, gave me my favorite cake, and had to drive an hour back home. I was constantly loved on and was almost brought to tears. My students were super nice to me, and a couple of the other ones were so sweet - they said I looked so pretty and thought I was going to a wedding!

Just throughout the day, constant bombardment of love.

I came home and my sister brought me more red velvet cake, and then she gave me a suit she had made for me. It's cheetah and zebra and is this beautiful teal with hot pink. TOTAL LOVE.

THEN, my entire family surrounded me as I cut our family birthday cake.

All in all? Pretty fabulous :D

So thank you to all of you that helped my day be AWESOME. Usually I like birthdays, but we never do much. This time around, I just felt constant love and this was totally my favorite one to date!

♥ love me? secret santa style!

♥ So..I haven't been feeling well since Thursday. Stuffy nose, coughing just started, congested as anything, the works. And I have lesson plans and stuff to do today. AWESOME.

♥ We're hosting a multicultural fair in school and each class is doing a country. Ours is Italy and I'm trying to think of fun ideas for the kids to do. They made chef's hats to wear on day of, so that's one so far.

♥ I have 2 weeks off starting Saturday! Too bad I have to do work during it, but yay a break! haha

♥ I know I owe people fic (poor_choices, you're at the top of that list!) and I hope to get to it during that break. I haven't forgotten, promise!

♥ Dallas Con is coming in September and I want to go to that too! But again, the driving thing (it's too far away and I don't drive that far...) Boo.

Ummm, I think that's it? Talk to me, guys! I miss you!!

+ Back is KILLING ME. It's been hurting on and off for like a month now. :(

+ And I'm still sick. It's been almost a week! Plus side? elless18 wrote me H/C fic: TLC
AU. Jensen has the flu. Part of her college!AU I convinced her to write. Love it <3

+ I am nowhere near caught up so of COURSE there's a convention this weekend. I was skimming the flist earlir this morning from like Monday so if I missed something, let me know please!

+ I got an awesome present from dev_earl this week. Thanks so much, Dev! I received this beautiful purple cloth (is there a certain thing I'm supposed to do? Sis in law is going to turn it into a top for me, if that's cool?) and a hand-written J2 fic :D Be jealous, you know you are ;)

+ Are there any icons from the sexy promos? Jensen's come hither face and Jared's stance have me all aflutter haha

I think that's all? How is everything going with you all?

+ Castle and White Collar were AMAZING this past week. I really enjoyed both episodes tons. ( spoilers )

+ ( Criminal Minds )

+ I haven't checked the flist in DAAAAAAAAYS. I'll probably skim so if I skip over anything super important, please link me here!

+ My muse needs to come back SOON dude. I have fic that I need to write but words just aren't happening :( I'm going to do the best I can to hopefully have a day to just write you know? But I don't know how that's going to go.

+ I want to change my layout again, but can't find anything I really LIKE enough.

+ I feel so out of touch with everything. I feel like I'm just floating around, no real job, no real friends, nothing. *sighs*

Wow this has been kind of a depressing post. Sorry about that :/

+ mini_nanowrimo is upon us again. I will be posting at least 250 words a day for my nano-shots table at spn_30snapshots at collidefics. I haven't decided if I'm doing a full story or random drabbles like last year yet.

+ I feel like I want a new moodtheme/layout but I'm LAZY. (also my stupid favicon is not working and it's annoying. Help me? arabella_hope?)

+ I STILL LOVE SAM WINCHESTER AND WILL ALWAYS LOVE HIM. I'm just sayin', if that's been unclear or something, Sammy will always remain my love. I love him and Dean both equally in general if not equally at certain times. I've seen some Sam hate, unfortunately, and all I can say is there is no Dean without Sam. (SPEAKING OF. I am short on Sam and Jared icons, comment with your favorite!)

+ I am SWAMPED and fail at life *facepalm* There's so much to do and I feel like there's no time to do it! It doesn't help that my nose is still stuffy as all hell, and my chest is all congested *pouts*

+ I have no seen Friday the 13th yet and so am a failure at life according to kamikaze_redux haha. I PLAN TO! I was going to tonight, but have to do this Vicks menthol inhalation thing to soothe sinuses instead. Let's just hope that works.

+ Hope ya'll had a good Halloween. IMO the best part is the AFTER Halloween (and holiday) cookie/candy sales. I have no resistance, seriously.

+ I was supposed to go to the dentist Saturday, but that appointment was moved. AGAIN. For the fourth time. And I haven't been to the dentist in like 5 years (last week's episode isn't helping my nerves, either) and I'm just so frustrated that she keeps postponing it. *GRR* But I already paid :/

+ I've become obsessed with gifs. Seriously. haha so to end on a slightly happier note, I give you 2 gifs.

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♠ HI!! Oh you guys I have missed you so much. So I'm back. I realized a few things, mainly that I'm in fandom to be happy, to make myself happy, not to worry about other people. I'm not going to give idiot losers the satisfaction of knowing they affected me so much by sending me away from fandom. Fandom is where I'm the happiest and these past few weeks not really being a part of it have sucked muchly. The past few weeks of not really talking to ya'll has been hell, really.

I learned that for me to be truly happy with fandom is an impossibility, I'm never going to be completely happy with that anon-meme and certain people. But for me to be kind of happy? I just need to revel in the things that make me happy - you all, the boys, the fic, and the art. Everything else is just unnecessary stress. So I've decided I'm going to do what makes me happy, which is write fic, read fic, rec stuff, pimp stuff, and spam the hell out of ya'll with pretty things. ♥

So I'm here, screw anyone who doesn't like it.

Also, thank you to those that checked up on me and what not. I appreciate it more than you know <3

♠ Boys were adorable as always at Comic Con yes? I haven't seen the vids yet, but I will! Work and family have kind of been crazy, but I've seen some pics and gifs and I can't wait to see the vids soon!

♠ My mom, dad, bro, and niece came back from Kenya this past week. Mom brought me back glasses and they're hard to get used to, because the frame is different than my usual one. I keep seeing this big black thing in my peripheral and realize it's part of the frame haha. But I still like 'em, they're pretty :D I also got new clothes to wear for weddings and when we have guests and such. I have issues with some, but that's a weight thing that I don't even want to get into right now.

♠ I have a couple of art recs while I was on 'hiatus':
+ Happy Birthday Jared! picspam by ina_ami
+ Jared Padalecki Picspam by kajmere
+ 4 SPN Wallpapers by artisis
+ Jensen Drawing by ParisKB on deviantart
+ Me and You: A J2 Picspam by mysticwaters
+ Good old J2 Picpsam by canyon_deye (A reminder of why we love J2. God, SO GOOD. Totally uploaded all the headers and have them rotating on my layout.)
+ J2 fanart: Quiet Mornings by nightowl81 (You'll have to join her comm, but worth it, I think)
+ Jensen Portrait by sisterzurda

♠ I really have a problem with icons. I like way too many, I blame how talented fandom is ;) But yeah, I need to delete icons, once again *sighs*

♠ So flist, *chinhands* tell me how you've been! Catch me up! I skimmed the flist very lightly, but ya'll get quite chatty sometimes so I bet I missed something ;)

♥ So the unicorn war between lemmealone and drvsilla has been insanely amusing haha

♥ I watched 10 Things I Hate About You for the first time in quite a few years. SO CUTE. Oh Heath <333 Is there a J2 version of this? I'm not quite sure if I want it to be the older sister or the younger sister's story haha.

♥ I'm apparently writing shaving!porn in the comments of my last entry for elless18 because I'm her slave ;)

♥ So who is writing me werewolf!J2 now? *waits*

♥ I haven't been sleeping properly lately. Like I sleep 2 hours a night, maybe, and keep tossing and turning. Finally slept for a little over 6 last night. But I'm still exhausted! *siiiighs*

♥ I keep frantically refreshing classy_lawyers, I LOVE that RP Comm <333

Comment if you'd like a color.
Then list ten things that you like/love which are that color.

el_gilliath gave me blue.

1. blue eyes
2. the sky
3. this picture
4. harry potter and the order of the phoenix
5. this picture
6. the ocean
7. i'm blue by eiffel 65
8. the color blue
9. shelter-the movie
10. dolphins (the blue dolphin)

that was hard and some of them are quite a reach!

So guess whose about to be another 850 dollars poorer? I fail at life. I have the worst luck with the car, seriously. And my parents and brother are going to murder me!!!